Fragility of bonds

I wish i could say that friends don’t drift apart no matter what. and that once a friendship bond is made, something special shared, it will always remain that way.

But somehow along the way when you don’t have anything in common anymore, don’t have much to say to each other anymore, a gap starts to appear. You don’t see it, but you feel it.

And then when you try to close the gap, it just seems forced, and so so unnatural. Old topics become stale. Find new topics ? Question is, do you even know what is happening in the person’s life now ?

You’ll then come to realise that sometimes things are not within your control, and will not, do not happen the way you want or expect them to.

They just don’t.

Kindda disheartening, really.

Rebel at heart

So we headed to a pub last night a short while after i got back home. Becos i was so mad and literally needed to chill out over drinks. Admittedly, S was quite a friend last night. Becos i said i was upset and need to go, he came over. Becos he listened to me rant on and on. Becos he didn’t drink much yet paid more anyway. Becos he fetch me and sent me back, as usual.

He didn’t have to do all this, but he did. So yes, this friend is for keeps. But to clarify, we’re friends and friends only. I know late night ‘escapades’ will always sound wrong but it’s not what you guys think, really.

It was kindda scary to be walking along the stretch of pubs at boat quay late at night becos i know i don’t belong there and it’s hardly my kind of place. and for a moment i was wondering to myself what the hell i’m doing/getting myself into. But once we settled down somewhere, it was actually quite ok. Stayed till we’re the only customers left and i did something i nv thought i would. It’s a ktv pub afterall…so i sang. HAHA. in a tipsy state somemore.

Surprisingly i did felt better after all the drinking/ranting/singing. After i got on the bike, everything became a blur and i kept my eyes closed most of the time. No i wasn’t falling asleep but he was going so fast i was abit worried the helmet would fly off. Racing against time to get me home by 4.45am lols.

I wld remember such nights. Unrestricted, thrilling and ‘wrong’ in a sense. ahahaha. Maybe there is that little bit of rebel in me, tucked away in some hidden corner.

Anyway, instead of making me conk out, the alcohol kept me awake. for reasons i know not of. The feeling is almost like you drank coffee with liquor. I laid in bed for the longest time, feeling tired yet unable to go to slp. BUT i still woke up at 9+am, surprise surprise ! For kbox lar. Although i was late (no surprise).

Kbox was hilarious as usual, with dar ard. Sometimes i think she’s a real 开心果. Becos it’s just impossible to not feel happy and burst out into laughter with her ard. She’s a gem and i think the guy she eventually ends up with will be a very, very lucky man. (ok has to be quite eligible cos she sets really high standards LOLS) The Klunch sux BIG TIME, btw. urrrghhh. i think i ate like 25% of the whole meal.

And then it was movie time with yee ! Caught Beverly hills chihuahua this time round. Nothing really special, just funny and really adorable =) I was so craving for sushi but sakae is no longer there at heeren. Super sian, so we settled for Waraku in the end. Talked and shopped before it’s time to head home…already quite tired out so i immediately dozed off on the mrt.

Off to colour my hair tml ! Ta~

i is happy.

Nothing like having a nice warm piece of chocolate cake with lotsa chocolate sauce and yummy raspberry vanilla ice cream to brighten up anybody’s day. And of cos, sharing it with dear yee. Ahh…good food always taste nicer shared =)

Edit: I just stumbled onto this quote on someone’s blog and i thought it’s worth sharing. Thought-provoking. It made me think.

“We always find ourselves holding on to things. Sometimes, we hold on to these things for so long, we forget what we were holding on to. It’s only when we let go of them, then can we see what we were holding on to.”

Will we think about tomorrow like we think about now

Lots of birthday up recently. All the october babies. Two more this week.

Li’s 21st ! Glad it went well for her. Except for the smoke, ah-hem some photos and the attempted BREAK IN by a crazy guy. Called up the security and all but luckily nothing happened.

Bad things aside, ‘was quite nice to have icy cold red wine with chocolate cake on the bed in the aircon room. Talk about enjoyment, heh. Chatted, youtube-ed, and finally drifted off to sleep at 5am in the morning in the filthy room.

Was pretty tired after getting home the next day so i FELL ASLP again. Tsk. woke up to chongqing steamboat with my parents ! Yumyum. First time i’m not eating with the girls haha.

I travelled the FURTHEST i have ever for a project meeting. BB to PUNGGOL. craziness. Spent a whole day at friend’s house alternating between photoshop and illustrator. Gah. Sweet torture. Fun but stress.

Met H for dinner after and chilled out over swensens. Was a great gossip session lols. Ok and some serious talk. Can’t help but feel young and naive when we talk sometimes. I think he thought i was emo-ing on the way back becos the topic of The Ex came up. But i was just switching off, as usual.

So he drove, and i stared into space, talking occasionally. I wonder if we’ll still chill out like that after he graduate.

So if we get the big jobs
And we make the big money
When we look back now
Will our jokes still be funny?