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真心话

在那刻，我被感动了。因为，真的感觉到你对我的关心。想保护我，不让我受到伤害。

虽然没有说很多，其实也会担心。但从你的话中，找到了安慰。

躺在你怀里，好温暖。喜欢你抱着我的感觉。。。

爱 都是对的。

我：如果我们今天真得分手，是因为我不够爱你吗？

他：不，你就当是我太爱你了。。。也许这样你会比较好受。

听到他这么说，我哭了。到了最后，他依然想到的，还是我的感受。虽然他很受伤，都因为我。

我：我们还有好多事还没一起做。。。

That night, i really didn’t want to let you go. and neither did you.

So much has happened between us within these 1 month plus. We laughed, we cried, we talked…Remember the night when we ‘argued’, i went drinking with lix and we cldn’t find each other cos my phone died and you drank and still drove and we ended up crying in each other’s arms? We were both worried sick abt each other.

And the time when we made pineapple tarts at my house together? When you mixed the dough, shaped the pineapple and we just talked and laughed the whole afternoon? We really enjoyed each other’s company and I’ll nv forget that image of you…doing this just for me, just to spend time with me.

And when we sat along the boardwalk at keppel bay that breezy night, so peaceful and so contented. I can’t rmb what we talked abt exactly but i think i just need to remember that warm fuzzy feeling of us being together…and we headed to mount faber after where we had our ‘supper’ and drinks from 7-11.

And the few times we went shopping together when you patiently accompany me and  gave your opinions on countless dresses and shoes…you really proved me wrong on the point where i can only shop with my gfs. I know you must be tired and bored sometimes but you did it just for me and i really appreciate it.

And the night when we had desert wine by the breakwater at ecp, using cheap champagne glasses with thick ‘stems’ lols…still, it is romantic to me. We had done so much together and i still want us to have more of such times…maybe that’s why my answer was always no when you asked me if we shld be decisive abt this.

I know we face many obstacles and i don’t know what the future beholds…but we’ll work this through together, right?

A reminder.

Twenty years from now you will be more disappointed by the things you didn’t do than by the ones you did so. So throw off the bowlines. Sail away from the safe harbor. Catch the trade winds in your sails. Explore. Dream. Discover.

Too stagnant, for too long.

I need to pick up something new, I need to go somewhere new, for that breath of  fresh air. Work is good in the sense that it gives me goals to work towards but at the same time it’s kindda numbing me, cos everyday i just refer to my list of to-dos and strike them off for everything i complete.

I feel like i need some form of stimulation, some form of something to make my brain work harder…at some point i actually felt like i miss doing readings back in sch, or discussing about projects for that matter.

I feel like i need to wake myself up and do some re-discovering. Why do i feel like i’m wasting time after work? Time which could have been better spent doing other things? But other things like what?

I hope i can figure out an answer for myself soon.

My world seem to have become so small, and my perspective, so narrow. And i need to do something about it.

dolce far niente

“You are, after all, what you think. Your emotions are the slaves to your thoughts, and you are the slave to your emotions.” – Elizabeth Gilbert (Eat, Pray, Love)

The book is much better than the movie (well, as with most movies adapted from books). Somehow the feeling of inspiration just doesn’t come through as strongly on screen as when you read them off a page. It’s the beauty of words, really.

Had a BIG cup of KOI accompanying me throughout the movie, wasn’t as blissful as i expected cos i suspect the quality of KOI has dropped. Could it be that they’re expanding faster than they can manage and thus, a drop in their QC? Hmm this spells disappointment for sure.

Need to make a farewell card but lacking inspiration to design! I blame the hot and dreary sunday afternoon, makes me feel all lazy and lethargic.

Loving my new digital scale. All i need is more, more, MORE motivation now to see the figures dropping

Run lola run

An update on my fitness regime.

Ok so i’ve been sort of running weekly with a group of friends at the workplace and yesterday after work we did a freaking 4.6km running along the canal nearby and back.

Take my words when i say i’ve NEVER ran so much in my life before.

It was hard, but luckily my friend encouraged and ran together with me, else i think i’ve never made it back. Anyway this is the furthest to date, usually i just do 2.4 on the treadmill during lunch. By the time we finished, it was aldry dark. I wonder if we’ll keep up this feat weekly, if we do, i sure hope i’ll hold up.

And today marks the last session of the aerobics class at yuhua cc. Been very, VERY tempted to skip the last 2 sessions becos i had to go alone since lix cldn’t make it. But eventually i managed to drag myself there after work everytime. Am very proud of myself for completing all 10 sessions and not missing a single one!

Aerobics has been fun, but gets abit repetitive after a while. I think there were only 7 ppl in class today, a far cry from the number we started out with. I think most people decided to give themselves a break heh.

So what’s next i wonder. Went swimming a couple of times few weeks back but i don’t really feel like doing that on a regular basis cos it dries out my hair like mad. Maybe once in a while will do…

I guess in the meanwhile i’ll just continue doing what the title of my post says. Thinking of getting a digital scale as well. Anyway it’s funny how i’m starting to exercise more now that i’m working as compared to when i was studying.

Thank you, my friend.

I think the beauty of a platonic friendship lies in the fact that there is no expectation, no commitement, and hence lesser unwanted disappointment. A thoughtful gesture is taken as a bonus, and not for granted.

Although the night was rainy and cold, my heart felt warm

if time can come to a standstill.

I really do love my family very much. Sometimes i would notice mum and dad’s white hair and i just feel a kind of tenderness/ sadness because it reminds me of how much they have gone through to bring us up and give us a good home, good food and good education. And always putting us before themselves.

This is, truly unconditional love. The kind only parents will give to their children no matter who they are or what they have done. It make me feel like sometimes i shouldn’t lose my patience and that i should do alot more for them.

It scares me how time flies..it scares me that many things might pass me by before i even have time to appreciate them fully. But we can’t stop time, can’t prolong it, so i guess that’s why photos and memories are so important to us. And as i’m typing now, minutes are slipping by. How can one live life to the fullest, how can one live without regrets, how can one live in such a way…

幸福，有很多种。

I do want to take back some of the things i blogged about yesterday.

Becos today made me realised just how shallow my so-called ‘unhappiness’ is, in comparison to other situations people have to face. The bad news about her dad shocked and saddens me. I really hope that she’ll have the strength to go through this tough period.

And it just sends a reminder to me about how fragile life can be.

I feel like sometimes when we get too comfortable we take people and things for granted and start to have room to feel unhappy about other things, which is so very insignificant. I felt that about myself today.

There’re many, many things to look forward to in life and be happy about. What really matters is that people you love are there with you all the while. And that you are well and healthy. And it’s really about making things you want, happen. Not whine abt how it never happens to you.

Makes me wonder why i nv realised this all along. Or maybe i’ve just forgotten it along the way. All i can say is, 平凡真的是一种幸福。We just need to learn to appreciate it.